Thoughts and...

More importantly: Thoughts.

So, surely you're aware that I have received a job offer in Japan, starting in late August.  As far as I know right now, I am going to be in Iwate-ken but I am not sure where in Iwate-ken I will be.  (Freaking Misu from karate said that would happen to me jokingly and it DID. UGH.)  At first, I was a bit... scared.  Okay, I'm still scared.  Scared shitless.  Iwate-ken is where the huge earthquake and tsunami last year took place.  BUT, what are the chances of that happening again?  Very small, right?  Right???

But that is not the point of this post.  I am going to Japan, and I am going to do this.  It's what I want to do.  At least for a while.
Recently, I have been thinking about it, and I don't know where I'm going to be in five years.  I don't have a damn clue, and it's scarier than being in Iwate-ken.  But, I have been thinking about it A LOT lately, and I honest to God cannot see myself living in Japan permanately.  It's just... I don't know if it's because I have finally gotten over culture shock, and gotten used to the idea of living in the US again or what it is, exactly... but I can't see myself there forever.  Which, I am sure is going to come as a shock to a lot of people.  Many of my friends have said "You'll go there and you won't come back," and have been saying that for a while.  Even when I first heard it, I didn't think that it was even close to being true at all.

I mean, obviously I don't know for sure, but ...I don't know.

なんでもわっかない。


There is more to this post.  A lot more.  But, I don't want the entire world reading it so it's in my private LiveJournal.  Sorry. :<  Also, it's all in my crappy Japanese. So, too bad I suppose.